4 truths, 1 lie.

I hate Chinese food.
I`ve never known my father.
Myrtle Beach is my favorite vacation spot.
I love funny commercials.
I`ve written several novels.

“What the hell am I so happy about?” You ask? I tell. I finally took myself to the doctor, money or NO money, and got some help. I was alone both times, kind of depressing, but it builds character. Anyway, turns out, I have something called dysfunctional uterine bleeding . I`m sorry for being so, well, personal, but why be censored? I always assume the worst. But, they diagnosed me, FINALLY, and then prescribed me birth control to regulate it. I never mentioned what else I was scared of, and this part is VERY personal, so keep this to yourselves [ said the fool to the entire world wide web ]. It happened two years ago. We`re all mature here, right? And the guy was … well, his ass got around. And of course, I wouldn`t find that out until way too late. So I`ve been scared out of my mind for the last 6-7 months that he may have passed something on to m. Finally, today, keeping in touch with bravery, I took myself to be tested for one of the scariest diseases out there. HIV. There`s a place here called “AID UPSTATE”, and they do free testing. I finally made a call and asked if they had any openings. They did. So this morning I went. My teacher didn`t come, so we were free to go, I had 3 damn hours to kill. There was no turning back. I get there, and this really nice chick, not much older than me, was the receptionist. She welcomed me, made some jokes, she was really cool. She did it for me. They ask you a lot of personal questions. I mean, wow. But I suppose they need to know. So, she pricked my finger for something called an OraQuick test. I`m tired of people sticking me with shit, but moving on … the test gives results in 20 minutes. So we talked for about 9 minutes and I had to wait. That was the longest 11 minutes of my life, people. I prayed. Read a magazine. Prayed again. Then, she told me the best news I`ve ever gotten. “You`re negative.” I don`t think ANYONE knows how big a burden was lifted off my shoulders! I was so tired of being, well, tired, sick, depressed … it was time. And turns out, I was stressing out over nothing. So please, if you`re ever in this type of situation, don`t make yourself literally sick and stress out. Go get tested. And if you choose to have sex outside of marriage, be protected. HIV is killing way too many people, & God spared me. I`m not sexually active anymore, abstaining for two years! Go me! I was, twice, two years ago, same guy, and yes, it was protected, and I learned my damn lesson. Don`t do it unless you really trust that person, and even then, make them get tested first. It`s not worth your life, babe. Abstinence is not that hard!

In other news, God bless you if you read down to this point, but I did a new layout. I updated a few pages. I love this layout. JoJo is my FAVORITE. Added some new music to the player … updated the gallery a bit. Let me know if you like any of this. Also, I have two wonderful new hostees, Nique & Devi. Check them out, links in the sidebar. I`ll be returning comments in the next couple days. I`m swamped with school work. And I have to work in the morning.

Did I mention that she gave me a bag with 50 condoms of all flavors, sizes, and colors? AND lubricant?